What A Life

It is hard to appreciate life these days. Everyone kept on reciting on me that I should enjoy the bliss of unemployment. I think I missed that bliss. Where was that supposed to be.

You know the feeling when you wake up, the sun is already too high and you only know it because sweat is already crawling down your forehead. You swear for a moment because you broke again your promise to wake up early (but how is that possible when you felt the bed only by 5AM and the sun is peeking). And then, your back just aches to touch the mattress again but you shouldn't because it's already 1PM and seriously, you still have a day.

Oh wallaby wullala, I still have another day. The knitting of eyelashes making every corner soporific and blurry in a cinematic kind of way. My head feels zombie, my muscles too lazy. Every single waking up becomes more and more painful because I have nothing to look forward to.

I don't have a future.

Maybe this is God's way of getting back at me because I prayed too hard for the success of that UP Fair concert and my magna cum laude.

(Oh I forgot to inform, I graduated last April 24. BS Chemical Engineering from UP Diliman, magna cum laude. I'm hell proud of it. I haven't made a post about it, skipped three months from blogging. It subsided now though. I'm already on that stage thinking, what was that for? It seemed like the Latin words don't even matter. I wasted my wishes.)

Going back, so God thought, 'Jesus this guy should stop bugging me. OK OK here is what you want.' And then the swish of the wand and oohlala. And now that I'm looking for a job: 'Oh I'm God and I should be fair so no no no, no for you.'

I mean seriously, what to give. I'd kill modesty and say, hell, I have one of the best profiles around. These corpo guys ditch me like some medio. My resume don't even get past the paper-screening! I think so, because I don't get the call for interview.

It's more painful because I know I had plans. I planned to have my own TV by now in my room so I can watch FIFA World Cup without having to excuse my sister who's watching Agua Bendita. I planned to have a decent hair color because fish pin bones are sticking out my scalp. I planned to have the courage to ask whoever girl I like to a date because finally I have money to treat her on a date. And of course, I have more serious plans than those.

I need a future. Call me.