People

0. Number zero since I'm through with the list when you came flashing on my mind and I thought you deserve to be here at the top. Nothing, I just miss you. :) I wish we're back at those times when all of these were secret, and yet vulgar, and apparently you're my secret lysozome (which isn't supposed to be) and I'm yours. Well, I think I'm back at secrets about you. I've always been. And by the length of this paragraph, you may well know that you're still the one I'm rooting for.

1. You're only like that when you think I'm angry with you. Which is most of the time, true. And uh, I secretly enjoy every moment of it.

2. If I'm right, and I'm quite sure I'm right in how you act, the feeling is mutual. :)

3. Gone were the times when I could comfortably share my insights with you without me thinking of what you will think of me.

4. Yes, a buddy. That would be fun.

5. You always make me doubt of what you really are. At one point, I've been so sure and now, a vast mystery. I love your extra special attention for me, if it's really extra special.

6. I liked it when your hand was on my shoulder. I felt trusted and in a way, proud.

7. Stop that. I don't wanna be homophobic again. The world is too small for me and people like you.

8. After what you asked, I now believe you and your peers have me as one of your topics during bonding sessions. I am bothered.

9. I secretly want to be part of your group. But it's too late and I'm too anxious. And joining you would be betrayal of my ideologies, or sometimes, former ideologies.

10. I don't know if it's a crush or just sheer envy. Because if ever, you're an exception to the rule.

11. I've always envied what you are right now. And I don't like the way you don't make full use of of what you have. I'm almost sure you don't deserve to be there.

12. While I try to be cheery when I talk to you, deep inside it's a mastered conversation. I find you scary.

13. I love my work and I think I've been very lucky you're my subordinate.

14. My dear social climber, I miss your jokes. If you could only stop that pretending.

15. The very day you left, EVERYTHING changed. The normalcy, or dormancy, of life. With the work load, I don't know if it's comforting. But I really miss you. If I have a list of people I miss, you're on the top. To think it was just a couple of weeks ago. Of course, you know who you are. Hahahaha. Very obvious.

The intriguing life of Leo Angelo Padasas. Oh really intriguing. Hahahaha. I make myself intriguing.

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Every glance, every stolen glance, caught or not, is charged. The underlying tension. Yes.