Maybe because I'm not American and I don't consider US soldiers in Iraq as heroes. And that I don't want them there yet the last scene portrayed the opposite. Yes, it has the thrilling suspenseful scenes the online people rave about but I have scene better ones (e.g. the opening scene in California Dreamin' == s.h.i.t.). I was expecting something like Blood Diamond, a movie that cared for the people it was based on. For me, The Hurt Locker was too individualistic, focusing too much on the primary character, whoever he is, who played his part really really good. Then it was very apolitical. They said it was a war film so I thought it would be like the appalling and astounding Platoon but it never went close. All in all, the movie was narcissistic and selfish. But it will be nominated for Oscars Best Picture because it's very timely and because the online crowd likes it.
Moon
So far, I'd say the best movie of 2009 I have seen. Compare: The Island, Sunshine, Memento. Sam Rockwell for Oscars Best Actor, for carrying the movie in his back. Yes, Moon is a one-man movie unless you consider the robot as an actor too. The movie was, err, philosophical. It makes you consider your very notions of reality by placing yourself in the shoes of Sam Bell. You'd really feel for him. Share his sadness that ran deep. Because you only shared your identity and everything you remember was not really yours and that you're only less of a human. If the senses were not enough to describe the walls of your reality, then what should be missing? OK, I won't spoil much. Definitely much much better (and even though I haven't watched it) than New Moon. Hahaha. Boo New Moon.
One of my best weekends ever. Never thought I could still avail a very outlandish unwinding before coming to school, before my very last semester in college.
I won't go over the very details but here goes the core stuff.
Saturday. Yna's debut. Yna is my orgmate in CE. 7AM call time at Mall of Asia. Left at 8:20 (haha), arrived at Kabayan Resort, Laiya, Batangas. I thought it was the one we ate at that one outing with high school friends in Laiya but that was far. I could barely see the rock formation statued near that house we went in that last time. So there was lunch and afternoon sun basking and beach-ing (which was very shallow, around 500 meters from shore before it went chest-deep).
Then there was the banana boat! My last was way back Puerto Galera outing but I can still say that that Puerto banana boat is really the best. I don't know. There was no suspense since you would really know if the driver is planning to capsize us (he would slow down then accelerate and make a very sharp turn, then about five seconds, we'd capsize). And the sea was so calm, no waves that would shake the boat. And the driver won't do swiveling; we only made straight paths and slow and careful U-turns. Corny. Nevertheless, I did it twice! Haha. Though the second one was free as I only had to fill in an extra spot.
The night was really fun! It was just the usual debut, only that we were in the beach wearing beach-y outfits - beach party! There was exotic siomai (haha) and innocent ice cream with turon lanka. And! And! AN OPEN BAR! My eyes were darting towards it longing for the different colored liquids in big jars even while the program's not over yet. Longing since I can't make myself drunk that night because I'd be running the morning after.
Then dance floor (woohoo!) for an hour and two shots of that blue drink and another one with the chocolaty something (ok I know, I failed myself but that was just three!). And so I stuffed myself with ice cream so I won't look for shots anymore. By 11PM, we were on the return trip to Manila.
At around 2AM, we arrived at McKinley Info Center. The whole EA team was still awake, making last minute brush ups before the race. I badly needed to sleep - I will be running and might collapse along the way, haha. I left my bags in their Marketing Office (which I think is actually a storage room/baggage counter hahaha) and slept on one of the sofas of the showroom. Yes! The showroom! Hahahahahaha! My orgmates were doing it and so why couldn't I. And even the guards were sleeping on them and were even watching on the huge flat screen TV.
McKinley could have been really really generous or the staff of the showroom were just really kind to allow the org to use the Info Center practically as our second home. Really!
The race started at around 5:30AM (only 3 hours sleep! plus maybe 2 from the bus). I ran with Erwin at Buduy for the 5k category. Just fun run, no race. The presence of pro runners made it difficult to actually make it to the top 10. Being part of a running event is entirely fulfilling! The flood of sweat didn't felt sticky and icky but healthy and refreshing. I will be looking forward to the next one I could attend!
Even though we were competing with the Pasig Marathon and the org has virtually no background in holding races (we didn't even start with something small like the ones in UP Acad Oval), I could say the event was really successful. There were minimal mishaps except for the occasional berating by pro-runners (very competitive!). The runners were satisfied and even some congratulated the organizing team.
Woooh! Congratulations EA! This is just of the reasons I'm so proud I'm part of CE. Next year, we'll handle international triathlons! Hahaha!
We left the venue around 9:30. Arrived home, very tired, showered then hugged my bed the first time I saw it. Woke up by 6:00. Haha. Longest but I should say the best weekend ever! Love CE! :D
Ok, I missed October. I'll be switching timestamps for this post so I can have an October post. Haha.
So in actuality, it's November. Sembreak fleeted by just like that. Or should I say, October fleeted by. Sheesh, that month was one of the fastest ever. Sometimes I think Earth has moved into a portion of space where gravity or dark matter is really strong and time is acutely bent. That is, time went really fast and we poor earthlings don't notice that because we're in the moving reference frame but still by our instincts, we feel like this is not right and time is really fast.
Or I could accept the other solution. That we are indeed really busy and we simply don't have enough time. And that we wish God slowed Earth's rotation when he did the Creation. It would really be great, having 40 or 72 hours a day. 12 hours of sleep would definitely be legal without sacrificing time for academics or org stuff.
My consciousness is just flowing right now. I'm typing what comes in my head. If anyone would ask me how do I do now, I'd say I'm sad. Though not suicidal sad. That was hours ago, when I learned that I got an INC in CE 197. Yes, an INC. Somewhere along the stretch of October, our prof failed to receive our final paper. My guess. Our group's guess since the whole group is INC. There could be no other reason for this to happen.
When I saw that three caps, cracks run across the walls of my reality like lightning bolts, branching root-like but crackly and brittle. The type of shock even tears won't flow. Like being inside a giant bell, be the clapper, swinging along the bell's walls, the shock of each hit on your body and the deafening shouts each toll makes. It's shaking your every bone, blasting the eardrums. I'm being very imaginative in describing how I felt. Maybe the fluidity of my mind right now arms me of that.
But that subsided already. I'm calmed that I won't lose my standing and my honor is still running. But the idea that Phi Kappa Phi was absorbed by it numbs me a bit. Though I don't really care of honor societies. They're just big fucked ups to group them honorific by name. Like elitists. Or I'm starting to console myself by being really bitter about it. Excrete the idea like poo.
I should be sleeping by now. I had a sudden urge of resting my head on somebody else's shoulder. Bony and uncomfortable yet warm with the lux of hair. I want a girlfriend now. I'm being impulsive. And mad. I want you to be my girlfriend now. My post is shooting in different directions. I want you here by my side. Warm me on my side of the bed.
I don't think there is anything deep or artsy or any thought-provoking about this movie but I'm really really very very very excited plainly because it's flat out cute! I've never seen a really good rom-com since Juno and that was more than a year ago!
Found the movie on the list of 2009 Sundance Film Festival awardees (yes, I'm actually poring on them). It took the Alfred P. Sloan Feature Film Prize for scientific something (not the best award around) but it was nominated for the Grand Jury Prize (the one that won, Precious, is really heavily dramatic and talking about Oscars, watch out!). I don't think it's 'critically acclaimed' with the quotes but the trailer just melted my heart. The only thing I know about the movie is the Asperger's thing and what that trailer says. I restrain myself from knowing more. Haha.
I am actually digging Google again for the best torrent around but it's very rare that seeds are only around 2-3 and no comments abound. I have three torrents downloading this movie, two says 'infinite' for ETA and the other one '3 days'. And yes, I plan to wait.
I doubt if what I am downloading right now is just a malware or spyware or whateverware they plug in to video files to crash out your computer but I really don't care. I need to watch this and I'm not helping because I'm watching that effing trailer for like the 7th time now. The maniac is so itchy. It's hard not to peek on comments and reviews but I'm winning it and will continue on it. Noone will shape my mind before watching it except for that cute trailer.
Excited! This laptop will be alive tonight even if I'm not.
Edit: And oh oh. Remember that girl from Sunshine (one of the best sci-fi, I must emphasize) who almost lived up to the end. She's also Brad Pitt's partner in Troy.
There is always something wrong with negotiating dreams. There is always wrong with settling for something less when you found out that you failed at the bigger one.
And it will always be sad. Bargaining dreams for the one much less in value. It will always be hard to accept defeat, swallow pride and all things synonymous.
And there isn't always another shot. You lose time every time.
